0x_Lacey_x0

not doing to well....

Thu, 02 Jun 2005 02:16:32 GMT

yeah well today i talked to michael....and we were just talking then i sent him a text message that said "i didn't think that our relationship was that good and that it was going downhill" and he sent me a message back saying that he agreed with me....and then i just became sad....i started crying and things....and every guy that i have gone with knows that i do not break up with guys so yeah its all on the guys to break up with me....so then i had told him i wouldnt break up with him that it was on him to break up with me or not and he got confussed and i think got mad at me because he thought that i wanted him to break up with me which i dont and then i told him that i would call him back in a few so i hung up the phone and just satarted balling my eyes out....its already my grandmas birthday tommrow so its deffinitly going to be a hard day as it is and i just made it worse.....

Mon, 30 May 2005 00:31:42 GMT

Well Thursday i came home sick then Friday i came home and got ready for the new person in my house my mom's boyfriend moved in on friday....so then we went to Gravel ponds and yeah we just chilled and then saturday i totally forgot about softball practice and so i didnt go and then joe and gavin and angelo came over for the day and we played basketball, volleyball, and all this other junk and then they ended up sleeping over... it was mad funny because we drank all this energy drink crap and it was really strong and crap and it mad us so fucking crazy and there was a band there saturday night so we went to the bad all night and we was dancin and it was so crazy and so we were there till like 11:30 then we went back and chilled at the fire till like 4:30 in the morning and then we went in the camper and we fucking ate so damn much we ate steak, cereal, oreo's, pasta salad it was so fucking funny....but we had a good time and then i came home this morning mad early like 10 and went to seabrreez at 12 and came home at 6 and chilling the whole rest of the night i got sick at seabreez so i aint going to the club but its ok ill go the whole summer.....but im out

Sat, 21 May 2005 02:58:51 GMT

Yeah i totally forgot when i wrote the other day to talk about what happened Thursday at schoo....We had English first block and we were reading some stupid ass story and i was really tired so i fell asleep on my desk...and then at 8:45 and fat ass Mrs.Patton came on the anouncments and she had said that there was a bomb threat......so we were told to evacuate the building.....so we had to go to the stadium...we sat the till 10:30 and it was so fucking cold out.....well i guess someone had programed on the calculator to say "there is a bomb in the school" everytime you hit a botton....so this kid when to go use the calculator and he turned it on and it said "there is a bomb in the schoo"....but anyways then i went to my dads after school so that i could go to get my permit....i passed my test with an 85% and then i got my permit then we went to the bank and opened an account for my so i got an ATM card....then i came home to my moms and went driving all around home and today i drove every where in henrietta......then i came home and chilled with Gavin, angelo, and joe.....but i got to go now because they want to update the myspace accounts....its so fucking stupid...

Long Time since an update!

Thu, 19 May 2005 02:06:22 GMT

Well yeah today was the first practice for RHAA softball.....it was funny me jen and amanda were the first people there and then missy came and then the coach and then this other girl from the freshman softball team.....oh yeah and then the coaches daughter.....so there was only six of us there....we did throwing at first then stretched and then we did this run down things between 1st and 2nd base......and then we did this circle game.....it was funny and i was on crack and i was in a lot of pain through the whole practice....and then at the end of practice i threw 75 pitches because im going to be a PITCHER.....and im mad good at it....and the coach said i did really well...so yeah yesterday i went on a trip to canada......our bus was the couple make out bus .....it was me and michael and there was a couple behind us makin out, a couple in front of us then a couple in front of them and then on the side of us there was a couple.....it was crazy.....but i had fun and then at the end of the trip i got sad because me and michael kinda got into a fight and i didnt want to get into a fight at all because then things go wrong and i dont want that at all so i was kinda sad....but yeah i hope he isnt mad at me he says he isnt but you know how guys are....but other than that it was a lot of fun....but yeah ive got to bounce you know how i do hommie G....1 love

Its My Birthday!!!!!!

Sat, 07 May 2005 14:57:14 GMT

Today is my birthday....Last night mike took me out to Club house and it was so much fun....we went on the go-karts so many times my back started to hurt then after we went twice then we went to go putt-putt golfing...... and so yeah we started and he was close to a couple holeinone's.....but didnt get any untill like the 11th hole and he got three in a row i was so mad not really but yeah he beat me 34 to 49....ahah thats so sad....then he was like im going to keep my ball and i decided to keep mine but when we went to go take the golf clubs back he took a blue ball instead and so i wanted his ball and i put my ball back.....so then i put it in my poket in the front of my hoodie....and then he wanted to go on the go-karts three more time so we did the first time was boring it was only us then the second time it was filled and so him and i had to take a two seater...like he took one two seater and i took another two seater.... and so whatever we started the race and all the sudden i see my ball come out of my pocket and on the bottom of the car....and then it got out of the car somehow and i was so sad....and then yeah so then we went on another race and then we went inside and got our picture sketched and then we play basketball and things then we went to McDonalds and got something to eat then then he was looking for him phone and noticed it was missing and he thought i had it but i didnt so he went back over to the go-karts and they were in a middle of a race....so when they were done the guy looked through all the go-karts and he found it and then mike and then he looked at it and noticed the antena was missing and they couldnt find it so he has to buy a new antena.....but yeah it was a great night then i went to bed and woke up at 10:30 and todays my BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!

This week

Sat, 07 May 2005 01:14:02 GMT

wow this week was crazy i got four referals in two days...two from the biology teacher and two for bitching at fat ass mrs. ellingham....i cussed her out so fucking bad then i got taken out of my biology class one day by mrs.patton because she thoguht that i would blow up at the teacher so she sent me to the study hall for the block it was so fun....um we had four games this week we won all of them i only played one.....then i went to tell coach i was going out of town on saturday ma 7th (my birthday) so i wasnt going to be at practice (i told him on Thursday) then at the end of the day on Thursday i went down to the gym to go get dressed for the game and then i came out and walked over to go buy a drink and coach stopped me and was like "Lacey whats going on you seemed pretty pissed at me when you came to me to tell me you werent going to be at practice on saturday" and i said no nothing was wrong but i really was pissed....and then he started to walk away and i was like " to tell you the truth im scared of you" he kinda chuckled and things but i was being dead ass......but then anyways then thursday night at the game i started to get a really bad stomach ach and things and i didnt feel good....so i got home and fell asleep at 9:30 then i woke up at 3a.m. and was really sick....then i was up untill i went to school and went to school had a good day then i had a game....we play spencerport....i didnt think i was going to play.....but i ended up playing but i hit only i didnt play in the field but thats ok....so yeah i struck out my first time at bat then i got a hit and i was on first and the catcher was trying to pick me off because i was getting big leads so then the catcher threw down to first to try to get me out and i had to dive back to first.....Let me tell you something that shit hurt so fucking bad....it mad my stomach even worse.....but it was so funny......but yeah im out

Sun, 01 May 2005 16:55:45 GMT

ok so this weekend was crazy.....Friday i had a game against Brockport and we won then i went home and just chilled because my mom said i couldnt go the to party at benj house.....so i just chilled then i call Joe and told him to come over so he did then Gavin came over....we were just sitting on the couch and Gavin was like tell alyssa to suck my dick so i called her cell and told her and then we ended up talking to her for like 2 hours on speaker phone......My mom was making fun of her and then we drank a case of soda and then Gavin got a beer and a soda at the same time and he hid the soda in the couch and opened it but it made it loook like he opened the beer.....so then my mom turned around and gavin acted like he was drinking the beer but he really wasnt then he set it on the table and my mom went in the kitchen and then joe grabed the beer and opened it and he started to drink it the gavin had soem and then i did it was so fucking nasty thats why i hate beer......so then we just kepp drinking and then gavin and joe was saying all this stupid shit like "Felisha Mc Fluff kitten" and shit it was so random.....then we hung up with alyssa and then we were chilling its like 11 at night and my mom had went to bed so joe and gavin wanted to buy a porn and of corse they did and its was fucking expensive it was $10.95......but anyways so yeah then i got a phone call:) and so i went upstairs and talked online for a while then came down staris and they were at a partwere these girls were like eating each other out and shit and i was like god damn....and i sat on the couch and then this really old dude he was like 85 came on and started fucking this like 20 year old girl and i was like thats nasty and i went back up stairs....then everyone left and then i was just text messaging for a hwile then i fell asleep....then on saturday i woke up at 9:45 to my mom getting ready to leave the house and i asked where she was going and she said the tanning bed wegmans and the liquor store so i went with her then we came home and we were watching the news on teh Run away Bride thing i guess this lady lives in georgia and she went on a jog tuesday night and got on a grey hound bus and went all the way to New mexico....and her husband called the cops after she didnt go back home after the jog and the lady called the police and said she was abducted but she really wasnt then she called and confessed that she wasnt abducted and then called home because she had no more money.....SHe wazs suppose to get married yesterday (saturday) and 600 people were going to be there but guess what the bitch is still in New Mexico.....so then i wanted to buy the movie The Notebook off on damand...and my mom said no and i told her that it was a great movie and she said yeah so we started to watch it and gavin walks in the house then joe comes then angelo comes and they were making sex noises through the whole movie then they started asking my mom all these questions about her sex life...(you dont want to know)....then my moms boyfriend was coming in from Baltimore saturday night so joe and gavin and angelo were talking about how my mom was going to be drunk when she had to go get him and was going to be like "FUCK ME ED" and all this shit and that she was going to be holding a sign that said "FUCK ME Ed" and all this other shit and they were going on and on about it for like an hour and a half....and my mom was just laughing her ass off and i was trying to do my homework....but i couldnt concentrate because i was laughing so hard....so anyways then i had to go back to my dads.....then i get over here and my dad goes come on we gotta go to the pet store to get things for your fish tank so we went and got this chemical shit we needed and then i wanted to get new fish so i get a huge eel.....and i got a frog its so cute and i got 3 algee eaters....so now i have a grand total of 12 fish in a 10 gallon tank....but anyways im just chilling for the whole day getting ready to go back to school :)....for another great week with you hehe

Still in school

Thu, 28 Apr 2005 18:15:17 GMT

well im still in school right now im in Boiology......We are watching some stupid movie that i dont want to watch i already tried to skip but i got cought......so now im stuck in here....but yesterday we had a game against Gates and we won 22-2.....we fuckinbg killed them.....and on Tuesday i went to my moms house for the first time after we didnt talk for 16 days straight.....we got things straight between us but i was upset the whole night because she had told me things that i wasnt ready to hear at all and so it put me in a lot of pain......then joe and gavin came over so we could tape for the music video then yesterday i went home after the game and did more taping for the video and then when my mom got home we had to go to my dads to get me some clothes.....then i got home and talked to Rob for a little while......i missed him since i havent talked to him in two days....then i got off the phone and just text messaged for a while on my moms phone and then i fell asleep.....i had to set an alarm on the phone to wake me up at 4 because my mom was waking up at 4:30 and i needed to put her phone back in her purse without her knowing that i had it because she hates it when i take it......so i put it back then i went to get a soda.....and it was really hot in my room so i had opened my widow and i hate haveing my window open even when i sleep on the second floor because im mad scared of liek someone coming up to my window and breaking in....so i forgot to shut it and i had fallen asleep and woke up when my mom called me at 5:30 to wake up and noticed that the window was still opened.....then i got ready for school.....and then i went to joes house and we were just chilling then he started to make fun of my mms new boyfriend so it caused us to miss the bus then jeff drove to school so he took us to school and we stoped at McDonalds.....and then i got to school....then i went to the bathroom with mel and some other people to do my hair.....and then i went to class.....and now im in biology like i said and i get to ride the bus home for once since i dont have practice till 5:45

Blah!

Sun, 24 Apr 2005 01:35:41 GMT

today was just blah a boring old sit in the house day because it was rainy.....woke up early then went back to bed while watching television.....then my parents came home and we went to the store and things.....then came home and watched television all day....then i called the best guy in the world.....and we talked for a little then he had to go to get ready and leave then he called me later on while i was playin DDR....and we talked for a while then i called him back later later and we talked then he told me to call him even later which i will do because i love talking to him...but anyways other than that just spending time with the family.....its a record now i havent talked to my mom in over 3 weeks.....im surprised she hasnt called wanting me to come home.....but i sure wont call her....but yeah we got a game on Monday against FAIRPORT....Your going down FAIRPORT!!!

Total shocker today at Practice!!!

Fri, 22 Apr 2005 17:27:29 GMT

Today i woke up at 7:30 really late because i have to leave the house at 7:30 to be to practice by 8.....practice was pretty intense today alot of running around the bases and hitting and things and then did some infeild outfeild..........so then it was like 9:30 our team was sitting on the bench and i had said something which my team responded to and then i was told something that i never thought i would hear....but i was told and i couldnt stop thinking about it the rest of practice....well all in all i dont want to say anything someone had a affair on someone else and got that person pregnate and i know who the people are involved in this but you know i dont feel like getting in trouble because i was told not to say anything so i wont say any names.....but lets just say i was in total SHOCK....and im still in shock.....but anyways then i came home and told my brother to get in the shower so that i could because he had to leave at 12 and were going out tonight well at 3:30 to go to Syracuse.....i cant wait....but yeah so he had to take a shower early because he was going to Adventure landing.....so yeah im going to Syracuse tonight for dinner with family members....then going to something afterwards...and then ill be home to talk to the best guy ever Rob....then doing i dont know what and no practice tommrow so i get to sleep in for once....im excited!

Fucked up day!

Thu, 21 Apr 2005 01:26:01 GMT

today was really fucked up....i went to practice at 8 till 10...then i came home and slept for two hours and then i got ready for the day.....i then wanted to go to the corner store to get some damn nachos....but when i went to get my money it wasnt there so i started flippin....i was heated....i was not in a good mood then i couldnt talk to the best guy in the world, Rob.....so i was kinda sad....then i was on the go and walked to the mall and then came home and then shit just fucking flew....it started at 5 when i got home and then never fucking stoped......but anyways now im bout to go to bed because i have a wicked head ach from bitching because thats the only way people in this damn house will hear me s if i bitch....and i hate doing it because then i feel shity....but anyways yeah

The Rest of my day

Wed, 20 Apr 2005 00:44:03 GMT

well after practice i came home and i was extra tired.....so i fell asleep watching jerry spinger and things so i slept for like anoth 3 hours when i got home at 8:45.....then i got in the shower and things and got ready but then went back and sat on the couch and called the best guy in the world Rob...then he wasnt home cause he went to the gym so i fell asleep watching "A Walk To Remember" so i slept till like 2:30 when i called Rob back and i got a hold of him finally....after him being at the gym forever.....and so we talked for a while which i enjoyed...then he had to go to take a shower and then he was going out....so then my dad came home and we talked about my mom because she told me that she didnt want anything to do with me anymore she said she disowned me so im going through a really hard time right now....so yeah i live with my dad full time....and then i went to my brothers laccross practice to try to get thigns off my head but it didnt help....so now im just going to chill in my room and call rob tonight....and then go to bed.....im going to be a reck at practice tommrow......

Mouth full of sand!

Tue, 19 Apr 2005 12:48:13 GMT

yeah well i just got home from practice and we did alot of fielding and things and then at the end of practice we had to play 3rd base while coach hit a ball and we had to drive for it and wwhen i dove i was laughing and so my mouth was open and i got a mouth full of sand.....and its like all over my body so im bout to go take a shower now ill write later

The best weekend!

Mon, 18 Apr 2005 00:42:01 GMT

Well Friday practice was canceled...so that made my day.....well not really cancelled....but i only had team pictures and then we went to Friday's for dinner.....omg that shit was crazy....telling Kaitlyn some nasty things that she didnt know lol.....like giving head and eating girls out and shit....it was crazy...then i mixed all the foods together at the table...and then i told the waiter that it was Jen and my birthday and jen didnt know so after we ate dinner they came and sang to us and we were laughing so hard that we started to cry but hey we got a ice cream thing...but yeah then i went to the mall and didnt get nothing then i came home and call the best guy ever rob...hehe....we talked from 10 till 5:45 in the morning......had a great conversation...and then i went to bed and woke up at 12:30 then i talked to rub like all day again untill 1 and then went to bed and then spent time with the family today and called him when i got home and he wasnt home so he called me and now im chilling waiting for him to go home so i can talk to him again hehe

I GOT A MOTHER FUCKING TRIPLE!!!

Thu, 14 Apr 2005 23:43:40 GMT

Yeah thats right today we had a game against Irondequoit.......and i thoguth that i wasnt going to play because you know i havent played that much and so i was just prepared to sit on the bench then coach put me in at Right field and so i went to go play strong Defence and then i came into bat and we said "1-2-3 Hits" and then i was notified that i was the first batter up.......i was so nervous.....so i was up to bat and the pitcher pitched one and it was a strike....i looked at coach and he told me to becareful.....then i was ready pitcher pitched again and it was another strike....so i had a lot of pressure on me and i was really scared.....so i turned and got ready pitcher pitched it and I acted like it was my moms head since i HATE her right now....and i hit that shit all the way to canter field mad hard and i got a MOTHER FUCKIGN TRIPLE!!!!!!!!!!.......it was the greatest thing in the world.....but yeah i am so hyper now.....but i gotta finish my essay so buhbye

~*~Me~*~

Great Day!

Tue, 12 Apr 2005 22:37:13 GMT

Today was a great day.....first off i hate that substitue that is in for Mrs. Snitchler.....she cant talk at all and her voice is so damn annoying....but anyways then i went to global and i feel asleep for like 5 minutes and since my teacher is Shapanski and hes best friends with Dayle and there room is right next to each other Shapanski decided to tell Dayle that i fell asleep and so when i was getting ready for the game coach pulled me aside.....but anyways then in lunch that nasty bitch michelle looked at us so much.....she is scared that why...oh yeah and i skkipped studyblock....but then i had health and thats the class i always look foward too....and Newman had this awesome story that she told us about her bestfriends 21st birthday that took like 20 minutes to tell us....and then i had Biology and we had to do this urine lab which sounded gross but it was just water and food coloring....ahah....i thought that was so cool....but anyways then we had a game and i thought we were going to lose because we were dead during warm-ups but we stuck with it and beat Mercy 9-8 Great Game ladies now i gotta do this english homework.....so i gotta go ...hehe

About to Ride the Motorcycle!!!

Sun, 10 Apr 2005 18:43:41 GMT

Today has been kinda boring but not really...i went earlier this morning.....and then i came home and started to cleaning my room and things and now im getting ready to go out on the motorcycle with my dad.....i dont know where were going but i just like to go out because i feel rich on it because it a brand new 2005 huge ass bike and i got a new helmet last year and its mad sexy...ahah i have no life....but anyways then i gotta come home and pack up my things for school and for the game we have tommrow vs. Hilton.....Its going to be a busy week we play gour times in a row Monday,Tuesday,Wednesday,and Thursday but anyways i gotta go now....

~*~Me~*~

Sat, 09 Apr 2005 21:36:48 GMT

ANGER
1. Who did you last get angry with? My mother
2. What is your weapon of choice? My fist
3. Would you hit a member of the opposite sex? Heck yes I would
4. How about of the same sex? Hell Yeah
5. Who was the last person who got really angry at you? Probably my mom
6. What is your pet peeve? Saying your going to do something then you dont do it
7. Do you keep grudges, or can you let them go easily? I can let them go.

SLOTH
1. What is one thing you're supposed to do daily that you haven't done in a long time? I have no clue
2. What is the latest you've ever woken up? 1:30pm
3. Name a person you've been meaning to contact, but haven't : My Babysitter from when i was little...hehe
4. What is the last lame excuse you made? I dont know
5. Have you ever watched an infomercial all the way through (one of the long ones...)? haha yeah
6. When was the last time you got a good workout in? Today
7. How many times did you hit the snooze button on your alarm clock today? None

GLUTTONY
1. What is your overpriced yuppie beverage of choice? Peach Snaple
2. Meat eater? Most definatly
3. What is the greatest amount of alcohol you've had in one sitting/outing/event? I cant even remember(Kristy and jesse)
4. Have you ever used a professional diet company? Nope
5. Do you have an issue with your weight? nope
6. Do you prefer sweets, salty foods, or spicy foods? I dont care
7. Have you ever looked at a small house pet or child and thought, "LUNCH!"? What the hell question is this

LUST
1. How many people have you seen naked (not counting movies/family)? I would like to keep that to myself
2. How many people have seen YOU naked (not counting physicians/family)? thats a secret too
3. Have you ever caught yourself staring at the chest/crotch of a member of your gender of choice during a normal conversation? Yeah
4. Have you "done it"? Thats another secret
5. What is your favorite body part on a person of your gender of choice? eyes and smile
6. Have you ever been propositioned by a prostitute? Nope!
7. Have you ever had to get tested for an STD or pregnancy? Yeah because you should get checked after being sexual! Duh

GREED
1. How many credit cards do you own? None
2. What's your guilty pleasure store? Dont know
3. If you had $1 million, what would you do with it? Shop buy a car and a house and shit
4. Would you rather be rich, or famous? Famous becasue when your famous you are usually rich
5. Would you accept a boring job if it meant you would make megabucks? yeah
6. Have you ever stolen anything? yeah a cell phone then i got it turned on for me haha
7. How many MP3s are on your hard drive? 700 something

PRIDE
1. What one thing have you done that you're most proud of? Dont know
2. What one thing have you done that your parents are most proud of?
3. What thing would you like to accomplish in your life? Go into the Army
4. Do you get annoyed by coming in second place? Yes
5. Have you ever entered a contest of skill, knowing you were of much higher skill than all the other competitors? yeah
6. Have you ever cheated on something to get a higher score? Yeah on the math test with alexis in 8th grade ahah
7. What did you do today that you're proud of? I cleaned my helmet for the motorcycle ahah i dont know

ENVY
1. What item (or person) of your friends' would you most want to have for your own? I dont know i get anything im spoiled
2. Who would you want to go on "Trading Spaces" with? Jesse
3. If you could be anyone else in the world, who would you be? I dont know
4. Have you ever been cheated on? Yeah
5. Have you ever wished you had a physical feature different from your own? Yes
6. What inborn trait do you see in others that you wish you had for yourself? i dont know
7. Do you wish you'd come up with this survey? No
8. Finally, what is your favorite deadly sin? i dont know

FAITH
1. What religion do you follow? christ
2. What religion were you raised as? Christian
3. Do you believe that forgiveness is a religious property, or a human property? human
4. Do you believe in magic? ahah yeah i guess
5. What was the last promise you broke? that i would hold off from dating people
6. Have you ever said the words to a prayer and not meant it? of course
7. Do you believe that anyone could be perfect? no

HOPE
1. Did you get everything you wanted over the last holiday season? Nope
2. Regarding your future, what is the best thing you could hope for? Joining the Army to serve my country
3. Do you let yourself get your hopes up for something even if you know that there is a large chance of failure? yeah all the time
5. Have you ever bought a lottery ticket? no
6. Do you gamble? no
7. Have you ever had something called off on account of bad weather, but then gone ahead and done it anyway? I dont understand what it is asking

CHARITY
1. What causes do you support? alot
2. What causes have you given money or time to? alot of different things
3. Have you ever worked in a soup kitchen or done another kind of outreach for the homeles: no
4. would you ever consider joining the Peace Corps, Amnesty International, or another travel-inherent worldwide charity group? maybe? no
5. Do you give money to the homeless on the street? once when i was with my boyfriend ahah
6. Have you ever helped out a friend with basic needs, like rent or food? yea
7. What's the greatest extent to which you've gone to help a friend in need? try to make them happy

FORTITUDE
1. What are you most afraid of? being alone
2. What did you do today that was really brave? took a quiz without studying and i got an 80.
3. Who is your favorite super hero, and why? i dont know
4. Would you put your life in danger to rescue someone? yes thats why i want to go in the army duh
5. If you were to face the Wizard, would you want more courage, more brains, or more heart? more brains
6. Have you ever gotten stage fright? no but in front of the class yeah
7. Do you consider yourself to be a leader or a follower? leader

JUSTICE
1. Have you ever been summoned for jury duty? haha no
2. If they reinstituted the draft (for both genders), would you go, or would find some way out of it? yeah
3. Do you support capital punishment (the death penalty) Yeah
4. What should be legalized? drinking at 16 and driving at 16
5. Do you believe that Dubya is rightfully President of the USA? such a silly question. I would answer it if I knew what it was asking.
6. What was your favorite media circus trial? no idea
7. Have you ever written a letter to a politician? no

TEMPERANCE
1. What do you have the hardest time moderating yourself on? food
2. Do you collect anything? Money from other countrys
3. Are you addicted to anything? my room
4. Have you ever put anything on layaway or used an installment plan? yes
5. What's your preferred method of paying for things? cash
6. Tell us one thing you wish you hadn't let yourself do: Fall in love
7. Do you feel that you obsess over things? oh yeah

PRUDENCE
1. Who is the wisest person you know? i dont know
2. Have you ever participated in a vigil? no
3. Do you take advice when it's given? yeah
4. What area are you wisest in? helping others
5. Do you drive defensively? i dont know
6. What did you learn in the last past week? i dotn remember

who, of your friends:
1) can always cheer you up when you're down: Jesse
2) makes you laugh so hard you wanna pee your pants: Jesse
3) has a wardrobe to die for: i dont know
4) is the biggest sweetheart of the bunch: Jesse
5) knows you better than anyone: jesse
6) understands you better than anyone: jesse
7) is the craziest, most fun: Court
8) is the most loyal: Jesse
9) is the most creative: Me of corse ahah
10) is the one you go to when you want to know something no one else knows: jesse
11) is the one whose face you want to see in the midst of a crisis: i dont know
12) can you always count on to be by your side when you need them: Jesse
13) is the most random: Court
14) is the biggest heartbreaker: I dont know mostly all of the guys i have been with
15) is the luckiest: Alexis
16) could pass as your twin: jesse
17) is more like you than anyone: jesse
18) could very well represent the lollypop guild: i dont know
19) is beautiful, no matter what they say: Jesse
20) is a material girl, living in a material world: Me

My poem!

Thu, 13 Jan 2005 23:42:24 GMT

Grandma’s Words of Wisdom

My Grandma lies dying in bed,
She lays nearby listening to what is said,
Her eyes hold tears she tries hard not to show,
My Grandma smiles for there isn’t much she doesn’t know.
My earliest memories were of my Grandma and Shillelagh,
that is why to this day I call her Grandma Laylee.
Sweetheart don’t your worry at all about me,
Forever you will hold me in your memory,
I have lived to a rather ripe old age,
compare it to a storybook, each day is a new page.
You will end up facing challenges,
don’t give up hope, just use your heart,
to make strong decisions,
and you will always cope.
One must be strong,
to live with successes and strife,
I know this now,
from my experiences in life.
You’ll have many choices you will have to make,
and yes dear many times your heart will break,
despite the pain and tears,
your heart will always heal.
Never give into temptation,
don’t let yourself steal,
Listen to my words,
my dear grand daughter,
they are true,
they were things when I was your age I wish I knew.
With a slight smile,
and a squeeze of her hand,
my grandma hoped,
she helped her grand daughter understand.
I kissed my Grandma gently,
as she closed her eyes,
and with grandma’s words of wisdom,
she said her last good-bye.

I wrote this in memory if my Grandma that passed away on December 16,2004...I love you Grandma you will always be in my heart....I miss you alot and life is going to be so different without you i guess i just have to think that your in a better place...RIP Grandma i love you so much!

Great Day and Night yesterday!

Sun, 09 Jan 2005 15:17:59 GMT

yeah well it all started on Friday....I called my mom and talked to her for a minute and then she had asked me to do the dishes so i said i would and then it just got crazy and i went all out after i did the dishes i took everything off the christmas tree and then took the tree outside....cuz im a beast...then i vacumed up all the little things that fall off the tree.....and then i decided i just cant vacume one part of the living room i gotta do it all so i vacumed it all up....then i sat down and watched television and things a took a little nap...then my mom got home and since i couldnt get tickets for the basketball game there was nothign to do at the time so i was really bored then my baby called me because he decided to take a nap too so then he called me back when he got up and he said that he might go to the mall but then he said never mind so then i was like ok what do you want to do and hes like well why dont you come over....so i said ok let me ask ill call you back...so i asked my mom she said no at first but then she changed her mind and she said yes....so then i went to go take a shower real quick and she ate dinner and i got directions after and we left at 7 so i got there and i called my babys house and told him to come out side so he came and met my mommy and things and then says "My mom wants you to come in to give our dog a treat because its in kidergarden and 6 people that are new to the dog have to give him a treat for homework" so my mom went inside and things and talked for a little bit and then left mike was makin some chicken....i put 20 on it that i would eat he told me that i was but guess what i never did eat....its one of those things that i hate eating in front of guys....and guess what he hates eating in front of girls so it works out just fine....so then we just chilled and things in his basement and i left at like 11:15....and i told him that i was going to page him when i got home so i did and when i was at his house he turned off the sound on his pager so he cant hear when some one pages him so he didnt know i was pagin him so then he finally noticed at like 2 in the morning and i was already asleep i was so tired and i woke up at 4 and i looked at my phone and it said he called 4 times and i was like "shit i hope he doesnt think i dont want to talk to him" he was suppose to set his alarm too to wake him up at 2 so i was wondering if he remembered....so then i woke up at 9 the next morning to my mom being really loud....so i got up...we cleaned the whole fucking house from 9 in the morning till 1:30....then to my surprise my phone rings at 1 o'clock and guess who it was my baby i was so surprised he never gets up that early....so we talked then he left to go get ready and i had to to....then he got to my house at i think 2:30- 3 o'clock im not sure....and we just chilled : ) but yeah we watched his football and basketball teams you know....then we left at 5 to go to the mall...i got my jewlery cleaned and i didnt have my money i forgot it then my mom had to come back to give it to me....so when i got it we went to this store and i bought my baby a new fited....then we left and walked over to the movie theater..."Regal"...we went to go see "Darkness"...i was a good movie i dont know what you people think maybe because you just dont understand it or something i dont know but it was good....yeah but we didnt pay attention too much : ) but yeah then after he wanted to go play pacman...so we did...hes a beast at it...but yeah then i left....but then was my great weekend...I love you baby...kiss kiss...

~*~Me~*~

best day ever

Sun, 02 Jan 2005 08:57:47 GMT

wow today was amazing i thought it wasnt going to work out you know i thought i would be sitting home all night doing nothing but guess what...today mad up from last night when i couldnt do nothing with no one...so i went to bed last night at 6 in the morning(i was at my dads) and my phone rang at 9 and it was my mother talkin bout some im gunna come get you now...so i got my ass out of bed went to her house and fell back to sleep till 1 and then i woke up went to the mall to see if they had my fitted which they didnt then came home and talked to my baby on the phone and then i asked if he would go to the movies and of corse he said yeah...then we went to the movies at 7:30 and went to go see Meet the Fokers....that shit was mad funny...but yeah we did our thang or what not then we went and chilled in the arcade room for a little while....and then it was time to go :( but then i talked to him the whole night and now we together just like dat....but anywho i had to brag or what not but yeah im out

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I love you baby!

Crazy week!

Fri, 31 Dec 2004 19:46:06 GMT

This break was so great and i dont even know why....well Sunday i had went to the club with jesse and that shit was mad fun cuz you know how me and my gurl jesse are when were together....I got home from the club at 1:30 and then i talked on the phone all night till 7 in the morning....then i woke up at 12:30 and then i chilled my mom had the day off but i forgot what we did....then i was on the phone all night again till 4 in the morning i woke up at like 3 on tuesday and then i went to the mall when my mom got home...i got four shirts and a fited....then i talked again on the phone all night till 4 again and woke up at like 12:30 on wednesday and then my dad picked me up when he got out of work then i went to his house and got a shower and made plans to go to the club...alexis came over and we went to the club together and then she came back to my house and stayed the night....that night was one night that i wasnt on the phone one night...i got some good sleep....then i woke up on thursday and we ordered pizza and she left at like 2:30 and then i just chilling at home all night everyone else went to the SU basketball game so i just chilled at home all night and then talked on the phone all night again....till like 4 in the morning...I feel like there is a huge weight lifted off my shoulder now that i had said something last night but yeah anyways so i went to bed at like 4 on thursday night and i woke up at 1 and things and now im just hanging out around home and things today so yeah that was my great week of vacation....

Christmas Eve

Sat, 25 Dec 2004 01:36:16 GMT

Yeah im at my Grandpa's house right now celebrating christmas with Bob,Julie,Adam,Amanda,Harris,Mary,Steven,Aunt Jen,Mike,Evelen,Gramps,and Grandma Jan.....lots of people...very crazy....and I decided to come down and write in this thing since i havent in a while....We got here around 5:15p.m. and we sat and talked for a while and then we opened presents...I got 100 blank CD's to burn songs too, 50 cases for them, pair of PJ's, South Pole Sweater, another shirt, some money, coins from other country's that i get eveytime i see my grandpa, some things from victoria Secrets....im very excited....but i just got done with dinner and desert....we had chicken,rice,some carrot thing,salad,and rolls, and for desert we had some rasberry and whip cream thing that had some liqure in it...it was ok i didnt really care for it but i tried it...now were just going to sit and talk with everyone...then im going to my dads and sleeping there and waking up in the morning to celebrate Christmas there and staying there for the day and then going back to my moms for Sunday to celebrate Christmas with her....oh yeah i forgot i put together my computer desk today at my moms house that my mom got me....it was such a pain in the ass....but we finally got it....but i have to go now...

xoxo
<3 me <3

Im going to miss you so much Grandma!

Sun, 19 Dec 2004 16:33:11 GMT

December 16,2004 was the sadest day of my life....it all started when i got off the bus at my mothers house from school and saw that donnies truck was in the drivway and my moms best friends car was in the drive way....as i walked close and closer to the house i saw my moms car in the garage....i didnt even think of anything....Bri was with me at the time becuz she was locked out of her house and wanted to use my phone to call her mom....so Bri and I walked in my house all happy and me in a joking manner....i said "What did Grandma die"....Donnie looked at me and shook his head and i just lost it i broke out in tears...i couldnt believe it...i was so mad at myself i never even got to say good bye to her or that I loved her in the hospital when i saw her last Saturday...I cried the whole night my mom then asked me if i wanted to go see her on Friday for the last time before she gets cremated and i said "hell Yeah" then my mom gave me some of my grandma's diamond rings to have and wear...and it just made things harder on me....the phone rang constantly all night we had friends over so it made us not think of it as hard...then on Friday i woke up and got ready and then we left to Anthony's Funeral home and started to make plans for the funeral which is being held on Januaray 16,2005 and we just sat around talking about what going to happen and things and then after 2 hours of sitting around we got to see my grandma one last time....it was the hardest thing i think i have ever gone through in my life...i walked in to this room saw the casket and walekd close and saw the top of her face and then was right up next to it and broke out in tears....it was the hardest thing i had done....i sat looked and cried ....I gave her a kiss good bye and told her that im going to miss her alot and that i loved her...we all walked out of the room my mom went to get a drink and then i went to my mom and i said "I want to go see her one last time" My mom and I walked in the room again and i broke out in tears again gave her another kiss and told her to watch over me....Shee loooked exactly like how she looked in the hospital...she was still in her hospital outfit thing.....she still had patches on her from the hospital...it was just so hard...Im going to MIss her alot and I love her so much!!

RIP Grandma...December 16, 2004... I LOVE YOU SO MUCH AND I MISS YOU TONS!!

This past weekend

Mon, 13 Dec 2004 23:23:50 GMT

This weekend was alright but kinda messed up....Friday um when did I do Friday...oh yeah I had to freakin baby-sit all night and then Saturday I went out shopping with my mom all day for christmas and things and then i went to my dads and then my dad took me to jesse's house to stay the night there and we had lots of fun you know i think you would know with me and jesse but anyways and then i came home on sunday and chilled and then went to schoool today you know had to get my education...but I miss you daral alot...you know you were perfect for mom and then she just had to do that....and go back with fuckin dumb ass donnie...he is no good for her...your everything that my mom would look for...i was hoping things would work out with you and mom....but no matter what you will always have a part in my life...Fuckin dumb ass has no part in my life and he will never have a part in my life...i miss you alot daral cant wait to see you soon...Miss you and love you!!

xoxox